iknw mannn!

havent been blogg'n inn a minuteee. omgeeesh! i am so not loyal ..lol.
ihave all thee timee in thee world but inever wana sit &;write shittt. lol!
as soon as iget home frm the salon today iwill write a few thingss! promisinglyyy♥

myyLOVE♥

*/ / /. soooooYeahhh ;thiss is myy right hand mannn. =] .

--effiongedwardekwere . lol . myy world . omgshhh / / / ;my sweetie . my hubby ! lovee him to death .thee reason whyy i smile frm time to time . &; sometimes the reason i dnt wana be bothered ! ! !hmmmm ;our story is a bit COMPLICATED . but its worth tellinn at the end of the

day .he's MYheadache;heartache;toothache;tummyache

;lol .all thee achess . awsssh(; .i'vee been down forr thiss boyy for a minutee now / / / / * uhmm fivee yrs to be exact . uhmm!when i first met him backk in 6th grd, he madee me wana SCREAM .ughhhh ! i could not stand him / / / / ;lol . but deep dwn i knew i lyk'd him . &&;somehow all our closest friends did too. lol .

--i want'd to cholkk him everyday ,in ELA . lol . he always had somethinq smart to sayy . ewww !&&&&; its still thee same wayy . lol . . i cann deal withh it better now ;i knw him too well not to .

as time went onn . i beqan to care for him even MORE ;so i front'd HARDER . lol . i couldnt let him find out i want'd himmm . lol . so i treat'd himm lykk a "friend" &&; that stuckk . uqh! ! ! ! ! !

it wasn't until uhm 7th grd .2004. we hook'd up. lol. it took a minutee. lol. we were act'n lykk we didnt like eachother for a lonq ass timee. it was mostly him tho;-D. hehe / / / / * he knew i want'd him soo whyy didn't hee just askk mee outt . lol . ahaa ! so childishhh. lmaooo / / / / /.

sheeesh ;we didnt lasst too lonq either .lol . maybee lykk a monthh . idk ! he broke up with me . he said shit wasnt qoin so qood . i thouqht otherwise . uqh ! that was a painful day .he dump'd me facee to facee . withh a HURT ARM . lol . so either way it went ;we both were huuuurt(: lol . yess we didd last a monthh i'm so sure now ;cuzz later tht nite . i went to his bday party . lol . our onee monthh was thee samee dayy of his bday . lol . &&&; uhhh yeahh . i still showed up at thee party . &&&; he intorduced mee to his momm as hiss qirlfrienddd . ahha ! so who won ? ? ? ME .

lol ... his mommy caught us kissinq behind thee christmas tree ;cann uu sayy EMBARRASSED ! i felt really badd mann . ahaaa . butt life goes onn . she didnt tell my mommy on me / / / / / /*

idk how but we officially broke upp . some weeks later i quess . hmmmmmm . IDK !

it took us alonq timee for us to qet bckk toqether aqain .lol . itt suck'd beinq without him . so i became thee biqqer man . &;madee thee first movee . lol . &; in no timee we were a couple aqain . but thiss was in 8th grd . OHHMMYYYGGOOSSSHHHH ! worst year ever for usss !

we brokee uppp sooo manyy times . i hated his quts &; all the females tht lyk'd him / / / / ! uqh. hoess were so scandelous bckk then . &; aint no better noww ! fuk'ntrampasshoes ! uqhh . lol .

anywaysss after we left middle school ;we last'd prolly two weeks of summer . he claimed i was too busy to tlk to himm . we hadd CELL PHONES / / / the same ones=] lol . naaa ;but damn everytime he txt meee ;i txt him bck . so i aint see wheree thee busy part came fromm . uqh .

afterr that there was NOmore us . we chat'd off &; on but it hurt'd me muchoo for us to be tlk'n that wayy . likee really ! ninth gradee we were at diff skewls / / / . when we tlk abt it now ;he says he miss'd me alot / / / ;and he was ♥broken that i wouldnt come bckk to him . lol . but hell i aint wana bee mistreated anymore. &;two different skewls . tht wouldaa been hell . so i was scared to take him bck . so shitttttt i was wild'n out freshman year . i had a blasttttt , lol .

ughhhhhhhhh 10th qrd, i moved to pearland . of course i miss'd him . hell he was my 1st L♥VE .

i call'd him every now &;then to see how he was livin . when i saw him around on the wkends. of course i play'd my hard role lykk i aint want him, even tho i miss'd him MUCHOOO! uqhhhh . i juss aint wana seem so vulnerable . lol . so i made myslef donee . &; i hop'd on the niqqas ! ! ! !

summer came around . i moved bckk . &;we start'd tlk'n aqainn=] it made me happy to tlk to him everynitee.. i let him come over onee dayy &; it bouqht all my old feelins bckk ;but i aint let him knww. / / / / /* tht woulda been weirdddd . then i dissapeared ! and i didnt tlk to him aqain.

11th grd ;i couldnt keep my mindd off him . so i call'd him one niqht to tlkk ! he didnt answer ! ! ! the nexxt day i call'd aqain . we talkk'd all niqht . i felt relieved . i told him i loved him ;he thouqht i wass play'n . he hadd a qirlfriend at thee time ! ! this was around nov.15.09. &;tht qirlfriend shit didnt matter to mee. ***sorry myishaaaa. i still lovee uu . but my ♥ was hurt'n without himm .*** lol . NOVEMBER 19,2009 . we were official . at it againnn . tht was thee happiest dayy of myy yearrr. realllyyyyy !

eversense thenn we've been stick'n it out . yeahh of course wee have our problemss ;but look we're nearly seven months innn .... friday it'll be seven months . i adore thee hell outta this boy . i cherishh everythinq we doo . all our memories will never be forqotten ! he's who i desiree... every moment withh him feels lykk heaven . i dnt wana be with anyonee else . i want uss to last F O R E V E R ! lyk etc. lol . maybeee wee were meant to be . cuz after all tht hell we're toqther ! ! ! ! . / / / / / * i'm qet'n really EMOTIONAL . lol . lemme end thisss.

always &; forever sweetyyy . thts what i'm promisinq . hold me to it . cuz i mean it . effiongedwardekwere . i lovee'uu withh all of mee . &; i'll never stop . NEVERRR ! ! ! !

--uur littlee onee™lol .

dejah♥

sorry mann.

yeahh so i've been missing.
and i havent been tru to this blog thing since day one / / / *
--lmfaoo . i bee to busyy to comee tell stories &; shittt . lol .
but todayy will be myy boring dayy so i'm qonna tell stories
all dayy abt thee ish i missed. lol . stayy tuneddddd=] .
--dejahhh♥

ahaa!

lasstniteee was a greattt wayy to kick thee o9summer.

me and my girls hit uppp orin&&&ryan's pool partyy. if uu ask me ya girl was lookinn so damn qood. lollol. LOOK(:

after thee pool party went deadd. we came bck to my house for a quickk seconddd. &&& a friend came to get us. we rode to someones house. thenn we went to vicksburgg, nthn was poppinn out there. lol. so we went to ridegate. OMG! thee hood. it was wide up there. so we startedd a slabb linee. tht hoe was so damn BUCKKK. lol. we went to thee gass station. where the cops showed uppp! lol. we evacuateddd. of course. like blck folkkk. i hopped in the car with my bessiee myless. he is thee craziest africann alivee. love'em to deathh. we went to soniccc. where he got a free route 44slushhhh. lol. damn africanssss!!! uhm from there the slabb line got deeper. we went to some weak ass shut down pool party far awayyy. lol. crazyyy. so on and so on. i dnt wana finish the storyyy. lets just sayy we all shoulda been in jail lassnitee. crazzzy ishhh. hopeefully tonitee will be muchh better. even thoo babeee will be off doin his own thinggg, dammmittt. ima miss himm. lol. uu ppl be uppp! i'm outt. lol.

--dejahhhhh. summer effin 000000009.

latee niterrrr.

itsss lattee. &&& i cant sleep. so what the heckk ... how abt i blogg. lol .
its alot of things on myy mindd. i'm jusst a littlee lostt. i miss myy granny alreadyy.
its times likee this whenn i'd call her. likee oncee at fivee in thee morning i was bored at a friends &&&; we hadd nthn to do. i called myy granny maybee three times. she nonnnne answeredd.lol.
BUT when i sayyy she called bckk numerous times. its noo lieee. lmfaooo///. she was likee "dejah i jusst wantedd to see iff uu were okk." all on myy voicemaill . of course i was sleep by thenn. ahaa !!! &&&; thee good timess roll. so mannyy memories on myy minddd. she is myy ♥ &&&;forever will she be. hardd to relive myyself at thiss timee. thought i would be finee ;sense we damn near prepared for thiss for abt fivee monthss. but its harder than i expectedd it to bee. its mind blowingg. &&&; idk how ima get up for churcch in the morning. God bless the familyyy. mayy she rest in peacee...i lovee myy motherrr. she's holdinn on quitee well. better than i expectedd. so strongg. her and her siblingsss. its mainly uss grandkiddss freakinn outt. wow///.just been a dayy without her andd we're missing her like crazyyy. lemme close thiss outt. beforee i start leavinnn the minddd. mayy myy dear grandmother rest in peaceee,ilyy.♥.

RIP GRANNYY!

May 22, 2oo9 .. i lostt my grandmother. Someone so close to me. Someone i looked up to ;to findd strength in myyself. She's the onee i called out the blue just to see how the day has been moving for her. &&&; just to share a couple of laughs. Now who is there to call?This is suchh a tragedy for my family. My grandmother taught us so muchh. she will be greatly missed. Gone from thee bodyy. But forever here in spirit. Sure wishh it wouldnt havee happened, but God makes no mistakes. All of thiss is a lesson learned! Never take anything or anyonee for granted. Cant rushh it...but i cant wait til thee day we meet again///. "Today is the start of something new," they say!!! So why do i feel so oldd. This all seems so outta of place. She's always been known to push pass anything ;she was just that strong. Guessing it was her time to go. She's at peace. &&&;this was something that she couldnt escape. Would have been better if she did. i'm gonna keep my head up. Try to maintain. thruu thee pain. i'm going to push foward because i knw thts what should be done.. Gone but NEVER forgotten//. i lovee youu Barbara Ann! Rest in peace. yourr grandaughter De'Jah Javette.♥

lovee'her.

JADA PINKETT SMITHHH . myy idol ... i lovee this lil ladddy. ppl sayy i remind them of mee. i lovee herr!!!

-- ;jst tht CRUCiAL.

u never think about it;until happens to u &&&; that's everyones story.....
Just gett'n off of workk ;so pump'd to qo see notorious///; gett'n in the car i was faced withh somee badd news. January 17,2oo9. my grandmother was rushed to the hospital ;from her friends funeral///. weird huhh? in the middle of the ceremony she suffered a stroke. causedd by a blood clot tht had been forming on her brain. she has been in the hospital since then. frm memorial hermann's ICU to some bullshit ass hospital named Kendrick ;where they made her problems worse! if uu ask me ;she was mistreatedd. Then back to memorial hermann.She hass had numerous headd surqeries. developed lunq infections.. etc. probably inn early april they put her bone flap bck into her head ;that had been qone since january. Two weeks laterr the nurses && my family discoveredd tht her head had started to swell up. So another head surqery was performed to remove thee flapp aqain. its sooo hard to watch someone so stronq && independent live off a machine for so lonq. My grandmother plays a biqq role in my family. she's our backk bone. she holds us toqether ;when times qet rouqh. when uu need someone to tlkk to she's always there. even though she's not dead myy aunt helen says she's visitinq a the heavens riqht now. so lets jst say she's in between. early May my family hadd to make a biqq decision.. to take her off her resportory machine, or to keep her on. there were pro's and con's for each decision. this caused so much tension between the familyy. everyyone had their own beliefs. but at the end of the day ;what was best///. was donee! After beinq taken off my qrandmother fouqht for those breaths ! andd to thiss day ;she's breathinq on her own. she's currently in the houston hospice where [[life matters]] ! lol . thts there sloqann. a hospice is a pace where patients are transferred, when theres nthn left a for the hospital to do. its been abt eiqht or nine days so far. when uu first qet there they place uu on some no food thinq for seven to ten dayss. To see if uu'll make it past then. Lets jst say myy qrams is hunqryy. this place prepares uu for the worst &&&; at thee samee timee prepares uu for thee bestt! its so spiritual. lol. and cleeannn. omgshh!

i'm all wrapped up thiss. i lovee my grandmotherr withh all my heart. &&&; i'm hopinq & prayinq for thee best. so i'll keep uu quys postedd on whats qoinn onn with herrr.

peeace&&&;lovee. --littleone.